I found hashem's love!!!

amother

OP ↓

Thu, Dec 12 2024, 6:29 pm

Just a few days ago I was scrolling through imamother desperate for some inspiration. I felt hashem hates me. I'm going through a major life crisis and felt so down.
I cried to hashem, please let me find you and feel you and today I saw a small spark, not related to the crisis but I feel like dancing and tell the whole wide world HASHEM LOVES ME!!

Don't ever give up, search for hashem's love, ask him to give it to you and you will see it. My problems have not gone away, I'm still in so much pain but I'm so joyful!

I want to hug you hashem
THANK YOU HASHEM

amother

NeonYellow ↓

Thu, Dec 12 2024, 6:34 pm

amother Offwhite wrote:

Can you elaborate? I’d love to see Hashem’s love.

Ask Him to help you feel His love. I've done this too, and it's the most incredible feeling! Try it! You have to be 100% sincere

amother

↑ Royalblue

Thu, Dec 12 2024, 6:37 pm

amother Offwhite wrote:

Can you elaborate? I’d love to see Hashem’s love.

Thank Him for the good He gives u. Even on the days when you need a microscope to see it. Also, if you look out for it, you'll see it. I'm logging out the site now, but I'll b.n. come back with some examples.

amother

Lightcyan ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 11:12 am

amother NeonYellow wrote:

Ask Him to help you feel His love. I've done this too, and it's the most incredible feeling! Try it! You have to be 100% sincere

Hmmm.....I'm skeptical of this. Is this hashem's system:

1. You have to ask him.
2. You have to be 100% sincere.

And then you feel his love?

People who don't ask him might feel it. People who aren't sincere also feel it. People who ask and are sincere often don't feel it.

Is it possible people imagine they feel hashems love?

amother

Wisteria ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 11:30 am

amother Lightcyan wrote:

Yup! That’s me! Begging crying pleading for months already and nothing in the area that needs a yeshua!! It’s betrayal and brutal. He sends small messages but overall it feels like a Hester panim.

amother

↑ Lightcyan ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 11:41 am

amother Wisteria wrote:

What small messages do you see?

amother

↑ OP

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 11:51 am

amother Wisteria wrote:

Me too, but those small messages can sometimes be a sliver of love.
Just today something hurtful happened on top of all that I already have and I just cried to hashem and asked please let me know what you want from me, I don't understand.
After that, I logged into daily dose app and scrolled down and came across a short video about someone that had challenge after challenge, everything and everyone was taken from him. He stopped and told hashem, there is one thing you cannot take away from me, and that is my love to you.
To me this was a message from hashem that he wants my pure pure love to him, so I'll be working on this now and hope not to disappoint him.

amother

↑ Lightcyan ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 12:10 pm

amother OP wrote:

I'm sorry for saying this but I don't really know what it mean to love hashem.

I love my dh, my children and my family. I feel joy in their successes and pain in their failures. I care about them. I worry about them.

How does loving hashem practically manifest? We don't worry about hashem. We don't help hashem with anything. We don't root for successes with hashem.

Is it possible we say that we love hashem because that's what we're supposed to say? How can we love an entity that we don't help, worry about, have dreams and hopes for, and whose ways often appear cruel?

tweety1 ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 12:13 pm

amother Wisteria wrote:

Are you me?? Begging for so long for a yeshua in a certain area. This week he sent me a strong message "I didn't forget you" but I'm still struggling. I can't not see him with this message. His message was clear as day but why am I so stuck? Where is my emunah?? I feel like a total failure.

amother

↑ Lightcyan ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 12:33 pm

tweety1 wrote:

You're applying human logic to hashem's messages, no?

How was it as clear as day?

Meaning let's say a person is going to rob a bank and on their way they get a flat tire. Our human logic would tell us that hashem is sending a clear message to not rob the bank.

But what if instead of getting a flat tire, they make every light, they're favorite song is playing, they stop off at the bakery and they have their favorite doughnut, and everything is going right? Is the message from hashem that they should rob the bank?

Or what if I'm going out of my house to do an important chessed and slip and fall? Is the message from hashem that I shouldn't do the chessed?

So how do we ever interpret messages from hashem? All we can do is apply human logic to the messages. But sometimes this would make it seem that hashem is encouraging us to do wrong.

#BestBubby ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 12:39 pm

amother Lightcyan wrote:

Recognize that your DH, children and family that you love are gifts from Hashem.

Also your health, your families health, your Parnosssah, that you are not living in a war zone are also gifts from Hashem.

If you put your mind to it, you can recognize that Hashem gave you a lot, even if you still have nisyonos and struggles.

amother

↑ Lightcyan ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 1:06 pm

#BestBubby wrote:

I hear that. I'm certainly grateful for what I have. But I'm not sure it translates into loving hashem if I'm being honest. To my human mind I have no idea why I was born when I was and not in Nazi Germany as so many others were 100 years ago. What did I do to be spared? What did they do to not be spared? It all seems random to us.

Why did hashem make some of us healthy and others sick? I think I'd say I'm scared of hashem since I don't know what makes him decide this way or that way.

amother

Crocus ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 2:26 pm

It’s important for you to truly believe that Hashem has a plan and every Neshoma has its own specific journey it needs to take in this world. We need to surrender our will for Hashem’s will.
I used to try to be proactive and try to change my situation ie everything was about moving now I try to accept that it will happen if and when Hashem decides and this is the best for me even though to my human logical brain we really need to move to a different location with more space.

amother

↑ Lightcyan ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 2:41 pm

amother Crocus wrote:

The logical side of my brain wonders (pretty often) if that is merely a coping mechanism. To say that hashem is infinite and has no limits couldn't have a better plan than to cause some people suffering, and that suffering is really somehow perfect for them, their neshama, and their journey seems very farfetched.

It seems to me to be a complete blind faith illogical belief that helps people feel better about things.

amother

↑ Wisteria ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 3:22 pm

#BestBubby wrote:

As much as you thank Hashem for the gifts you have, it doesn’t take away the pain. When someone has a broken leg, it doesn’t matter if the rest of the body is healthy. The pain takes over the entire function of the body. Same when you have an enormous nisayon. Yes, we have loads and loads of good in other areas, but it doesn’t take away the pain in the area that is lacking.

amother

↑ Wisteria ↓

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 3:25 pm

tweety1 wrote:

That makes two of us. You are talking out of my throat.

amother

↑ Wisteria

Mon, Dec 30 2024, 3:30 pm

amother Lightcyan wrote:

What small messages do you see?

I need a yeshua in a few areas. One specific area is much more urgent and I have been putting all of my focus on that. All of the sudden I get a yeshua in the other area that I wasn’t focusing on. For example (not what is going on in my life ) I’m looking to move into a new house but I don’t have the money. It’s really urgent for my kids emotional stability. I cry beg and plea hashem should send me a yeshua. All of the sudden my kid gets into the camp we were hoping to get into. So yes hashem sent me a yeshua or a message in one area but a total hester panim in the other.