Meanwhile I am a full time working mom of two just dying .
I work in childcare making 37k a year. My salary gets cut when I take off sick days for my kids.
My DH was in health insurance but he got fired two years ago. Has been doing shift work for the past year in food service. We’re not making more than 50k between us, probably less because his work varies based on the month.
My three year old has high needs.
I want more kids.
That said I need to quit my job.
It’s making me so miserable.
Working with other people toddlers leaves me no energy when I go home to take care of my own toddler- she has ot and therapies to help her which I’m having to pay for myself because our insurance won’t cover it- she frequently gets dysregulated and can’t be left alone will just follow me around screaming for hours at a time . I can’t bathe her because she is extremely sensitive to water- I don’t want to go into all her sensitivities but I’m just saying- she’s not easy.
I cannot, absolutely cannot work in child care anymore. It is making me so mean to my own children. I use up all my patience on everyone else’s toddler. I work full days because I’m
already getting paid a disgustingly low salary and what I should get paid less?
Anyway it’s untenable.
I’m not going back to work next year.
Just makes me so scared of how we’re gonna manage.
I was thinking of doing babysitting in my house so I can be at home and do some organizing/ cooking and be somewhat regulated when my toddler gets home. But I’m really scared. I feel like he can’t get another job. And I’m done sacrificing my kids for everyone else’s.
