Keep my head together

amother

Tue, Apr 09 2024, 4:01 pm

I'm feeling panicky because our finances really tanked this year in a big way. It's scary. I'm determined to make Pesach with joy and belief in Hashem. I'm careful with what I buy but there are sooo many purchases that must be made and my bank account is precarious. To top it all off I just got hit with a huge tax bill from last year. Ironically last year when I made that money I could have paid that amount without blinking. This year I don't have a penny to scrape together to pay that bill and I haven't even started shopping yet.

Altogether, it's been a rough year with a few major challenges. I don't want to fall apart because I know Hashem has a plan and surely He will take us through, but it's two weeks to Pesach and I just want to cry. Can I vent?

amother

Calendula

Tue, Apr 09 2024, 5:56 pm

amother OP wrote:

crying as in releasing feelings is ok
crying in prayer is ok

crying as in anger at Hashem is where things get sticky

It is TOUGHER THAN TOUGH this situation
but what did I tell myself
I will not tell the One above how huge my problem are I will tell my problems how ginormous my G-d is

TRUE SOLID HEARTFELT BITACHON GOES FURTHER THAN A MILLION IN THE BANK

קוה אל ה'
חזק ויאמץ לבך
הבוטח בה' חסד יסובבנו
טוב ה' לכל ורחמיו על כל מעשיו
הוא נותן לחם לכל בשר כי לעולם חסדו
פותח את ידיך ומשביע לכל חי רצון
אין לנו עוזר וסומך אלא אתה

amother

Tue, Apr 09 2024, 6:25 pm

Chas V'shalom - no anger. Just fear. And a strong desire to stay very, very strong in my belief. Even as my funds dip to quite below zero. Hashem sends salvation in the blink of the eye and I just want to make Pesach and care for my kids with joy. Please Hashem.