Heartbreak | Imamother

amother

Tue, Dec 26 2023, 10:34 pm

Done.
Finished.
So tired.
The end.
This is goodbye.

I see you now
Your true colors
In all their morbid glory
And I know that
I was fooled.

You say that
You love me so much
That you care about me
More than I'll ever know.
It messes with my head
Why?
How?
How can you be this way?
It doesn't make sense.
With the same mouth
You tell me
That you'll never speak to me again
If I don't do
Exactly as you want
In my personal life.

Why?
Why are you punishing me?
Why do you think
That you have the right
To dictate my life?
To judge?
To decide what's right?
Who are you, exactly?
Are you G-d?
Do you consider yourself omnipotent?
That the only true value system
Is yours?

I need to be angry.
I need to be righteously indignant
At your tremendous gall.
Because otherwise
I will simply
Fall
Apart.

How could you do this to me????

amother

Wed, Dec 27 2023, 4:13 am

amother DarkRed wrote:

Hugs

I guess you're the OP of the heartbroken thread? Maybe send this poem to your friend?

Yes, I am.

She'll take it as a sign that I want to continue the relationship. She loves when I send her poems.

happyness

Wed, Dec 27 2023, 7:30 am

amother OP wrote:

Hugs op

I want to point out how healthy this poem is. How healthy ur anger is. How healthy u are for seeing the truth and accepting it

Stay strong and brave. Hashem should give u koiach

amother

Wed, Dec 27 2023, 9:38 am

happyness wrote:

Hugs op

I want to point out how healthy this poem is. How healthy ur anger is. How healthy u are for seeing the truth and accepting it

Stay strong and brave. Hashem should give u koiach

Thank you and amen

amother

Hibiscus

Wed, Dec 27 2023, 9:42 am

amother OP wrote:

Yes, I am.

She'll take it as a sign that I want to continue the relationship. She loves when I send her poems.

You write beautifully.
Don’t send it to her.
She doesn’t deserve to read it or to get it from you.
Thanks for sharing it with us.
Save it for yourself.
Hide it away somewhere and take it out in a year to read and hopefully to reflect on how far you’ve come.

amother

Tue, Jan 02 2024, 8:29 pm

I need to order diapers
But I can't
My life is at a standstill
Groping through a canyon of fog
Everything is too hard
Too confusing
Like a newborn foal abandoned
And left to fend for itself
What is wrong with me
Why do my feelings cage me so
I'm lost
Bewildered
Betrayed
Hurt
Muddled
Like a hunted deer
Stumbling before the hounds
Unable to find refuge.